Happy Birthday Clare!

!!!HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLARE!!!

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The past week has been quite bad towards the end, with me fluctuating from being utterly depressed, to plain sad melancolic, to bitter frustration and constant irritability. It is particularly interesting to note the similarity between my moods and the Indonesian tsunami in 2004, which is extremely annoying because it can be seriously disabling at times.

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Was pretty sad on Friday, (I have no fucking idea why) and probably looked so moody no one was bothered to talk to me. It's a trait of depressed people, that others are worried it might be infectious, and go to all means to avoid them. It's like happiness, which -in conclusion- is why people enjoy hanging around happy people, and not sad people.

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Hmm, I've really got to work on that, got to learn how to look happy. That's a start, I guess.

Anyway, Friday evening was better, with me going for Pre-clin pub crawl. Got to meet lots of people, and dance with my favourite Kudnarto (and I forgot to compliment her on her dress!!! ARGH what was I thinking..).

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Happy Birthday Clare, hope all your birthday wishes come true. =)

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I'm not sure when all this will end. Soon, I hope. It's just a pesky, lingering feeling that haunts me constantly, and doesn't seem to get better with each passing day. Maybe it's not a matter of letting go. Maybe it's just something I have to bear with until it wears away with time... soon, I hope...